De monstruos y abismos

El que lucha contra monstruos debe tener cuidado de no convertirse él mismo en un monstruo. Y cuando tu mirada penetra largo tiempo en el fondo del abismo, el abismo también penetra en ti.

        Friedrich Nietzsche - Más allá del bien y del mal.

I Dreamed a Dream

I Dreamed a Dream

del musical  "Los Miserables"

I Dreamed a Dream en Grooveshark 

Fantine canta, sola y desempleada:

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together

But there are dreams that cannot be

And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

Misantropía

Dicen que lo que no te mata te hace más fuerte. Quiza habría que investigar un poco más que quiere decir eso de "hacerse mas fuerte". Luego de 3 años de problemas personales, no me siento realmente más fuerte. El tiempo solo me ha demostrado las muchas caras de la miseria humana, de lo despreciable que pueden llegar a ser nuestros "hermanos de especie".


Soy (o era) de las personas que normalmente no guarda odio por nadie. Nunca he creído en la bondad humana, por lo que nunca he tenido grandes expectativas sobre el comportamiento de los demás. He sido un defensor del egoísmo inteligente, es decir, que somos seres individualistas y nos proocupamos por nuestros intereses y en conflicto con otros, elegiremos primero los nuestros. Pero inteligente porque debemos de saber controlar nuestros deseos a fin de no pasar por encima de los demás, sobretodo si eso puede traer consecuencias a futuro para nosotros.

Sin embargo, el tiempo me hace pensar que no solo no somos buenos, sino además no somos inteligentes; que demasiados de nosotros no sobrepasamos más alla de un comportamiento animal en el que pensamos en el ahora y no vemos las consecuencias de nuestros actos, ya no sobre otros, sino sobre nosotros mismos.

En otros casos, aquellos que han logrado pasar la valla de la inteligencia, la han aprovechado bastante bien para su uso personal, y se han  rodeado de suficientes pseudo-humanos que ven en estos "lideres" un beneficio a corto plazo, no permitiendo su limitada inteligencia ver más alla de lo temporal... como llevar a una vaca al camal, bajo el auspicio de un un buen bocado al final del camino.

Ahora me encuentro odiando a quienes me eran indiferentes, y siéndome indiferentes aquellos que antes apreciaba. No recuerdo si antes odiaba a alguien, pero estos posiblemente se hayan perdido en el saco de todos aquellos a quienes ahora odio.

Supongo que de eso se trata envejecer... Si alguna parte de mi se sintió común a la humanidad, esa debe de ser la parte de mi que ahora odio.

Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea

True Affection

(The Blow)

I was out of your league

And you were twenty thousand underneath the sea

Waving affections

You were out of my league

At a distance that I didn't want to see

Down to the bottom

I wanted a junction and often there was one

You'd surfaced face-first and we'd

Share thought bubbles and

I still believe in the phases that we breathed

But I know the distance isn't fair to cross

I was out of your league

And you were twenty thousand underneath the sea

Waving affections

You were out of my league

At a distance that I didn't want to see

Wanted you nearer

Your depths made a pressure that

Punctured my works and all your fluids couldn't tolerate the

Force of my thirst

I love the place where we shared our tiny grace

But just because its real don't mean its gonna work

I was out of your league

And you were twenty thousand underneath the sea

Waving affections

You were out of my league

At a distance that I didn't want to see

Wanted you nearer

And true affection floats

True affection sinks

Like a stone

I never felt so close

I never felt so all alone

I was out of your league

And you were twenty thousand underneath the sea

Waving affections

You were out of my league

At a distance that I didn't want to see

Wanted you nearer